It will be worth it all

I wish I could say today went as smoothly as Monday, but it was the exact opposite. In fact today's lessons ended in tears. Mine mostly, but it made me wonder why there has to be days like this?

It does seem like when we have a really good day the next day is difficult. Nothing changes except the activity I try to present but they seem to burn out easily. Then that leaves me feeling like what I do for them is worthless. All the work I put in just seems to go unnoticed and unappreciated. That's motherhood though. We give our all and sacrifice so much and try to do all we can to provide opportunities for them and it often goes unnoticed and unappreciated.

So what do you do when you have days like this? Well I lock myself in my room and have a hissy fit and cry for a little while and then come out and apologize to my kids for my behavior and remind them I love them no matter what. After that I just keep going. I do what I have to do one step after another and hope that tomorrow will be better. I also remind myself that it all is worth it. Things might not go well on a particular day but it does matter and it does sink in and make a difference in their lives whether I see it immediately (like Monday) or whether I see it a year from now.

Also, I remind myself that in my faith as a Christian, nothing goes unnoticed by God, and he will take care of everything if I trust in him.

So I just want to say to all parents, Montessorians or not, what you do matters and it is all worth the effort you put in!